Dear Young Me #beautiful girl

Beautiful girl, you have grown to become a force to be reckoned with. You are going to be very proud of yourself.

That monster thought he was dimming your light, but God makes the final decision and you will soon see God’s great work over your life.

 I know you blame yourself for everything that happened and our family members haven’t been supportive. You are being blamed for what that man did and you struggle to voice out your pain. Our family failed to report this man because they also didn’t know better.

As tough as its been, you have overcome so many hurdles in life, beautiful one.

You finally got a break and went to Rhodes University to study journalism + media studies. Haha! How life works right? Yup – you get to do the course that has always been a dream of yours, all your hard work paid off baby girl.

The first couple of years at Rhodes University were difficult, you didn’t fit in and you weren’t sure of what you stood for. Mentally and emotionally you struggled. You were very hard on yourself and still carried the pain inflicted by that man.

Beautiful girl, you are strong! You managed to conquer the demons. In 2013 you graduated, the first in your immediate family to do so. God and your ancestors showed up and you managed to get a scholarship to further your studies.

You have worked very hard. It’s still a process but you are on a journey of healing. In 2018, you started going for therapy and you are doing very well. You’re so self-aware and aware of your surroundings. Well done, ntombi!

In 2019, you took the courage to go open up a case against that man. Justice hasn’t been served, yet but you took the necessary step.

You are your family’s light. You are doing everything in your power to change things for your family. Your great-grandmother, passed away in 2016 and it hurt but you have been strong. You are doing the things she has always wanted to do. Breaking generational curses, one step at a time.

You are loving. Your name really defines you because everything you have done the foundation has been love.

In everything you do, just know that you are doing well for yourself. Continue to be yourself. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.

You are going far, you are going to travel the world. Your story is going to change people’s lives.

You are worthy of love, you are worthy of success and you are worthy of abundance.

Go on beautiful girl. Don’t give up! Things are coming together for your good.

Love,

Yours Truly.